I'm Alive....Ish

[KARP KARP!]

Hey guys, just letting you know why I've been sorta MIA for the past five or so weeks. Or does this week make six? I lost count.

Anyways, I almost typed something like this up last night, but panicked and closed the tab when I looked and realized I was just starting out and already had a several paragraph rant behind me. xD; Yeah, I almost typed up a rant, which prolly puts my mood and whatnot these days into perspective.

Without going into the long grueling details that last night's version would have, The Fish has a lot on his plate right now. What with work, personal drama, and lack of muse, added to the stress that comes with all of that, I just can't think straight.

My job is just eating my soul, and draining my physical body. One of my coworkers has been out this entire time, and yours truly has had to not only take up his slack, but do my usual job on top of that; and it feels like the more I do, the more I'm expected to do. I had a day off Tuesday last week, and I will not see another til Saturday of this week. On top of THAT, I cut my hand, just a tiny scratch, while at work Friday. I decided to do the 'right' thing and go through protocol. You know, I thought I'd just have to tell somebody and fill out a form and go about my happy little way, right?

Haha....no. I do that, fill out a form, hand it to my supervisor, then get practically DRAGGED down the hall to the Emergency Room. They put me in a bed, hook me up to monitors--over a TEENY CUT--and everything. Then they give me a shot, which had hurt since last night. Good news is no more arm pain this morning! And after that I had to go take a drug test. Aaand there's a good chance I'll have to appear before some committee about this. OVER A TEENY CUT!

I won't go into the personal drama bit here; but just know that I. HATE. DRAMA. @_@

Anyways, that's my life in a nutshell right now; and this version is very condensed compared to last night's emotional rampage that scared the crap out of me--and you who have RP'd with me know that this could actually be the longest thing I've ever posted on this site. >.>

But what I'm trying to say is, I'm not dead, guys. I'm just going through a lot of crap these days, and I PROMISE I will be back up to speed before too long. I don't know when that will be, exactly, but I will be back to my usual self, and I'll keep dropping by to pop out a post or two when I can.

I love you guys, and I'm sorry I've been MIA. Be back soon.

[Ball Rat]

I'm glad you're not dead, Fishie~ X3 *rubs your shoulders* Hope things start looking better soon. That is really strange that they freaked out over a little cut... But I suppose that it's a good thing that they're trying to take care of you...? Heh... Anyway, glad to see you around and lots of luvz<3

[Baroness Charmissey]

Aww Fisheh!! D: Well I hope everything turns out alright. *huggles*

[Maid Melody]

DDDDXX Dawww fisheh I'm so sorry you've had so much drama! Drama bites I know >3< Elayne herself has had a rough couple of months which has left her own muse shredded at times but yeah. I hope it all ends soon and don't worry about being MIA, everyone's entitled to a break :3 *huggles* I just hope your work treats you better and yeah *huggles moar*

[Admiral Striker General]

.......... X"D;;;;;;;;;; LOOOL. I... I don't mean to seem insensitive to Fish's problems I swear, just... When you told me the other night that you'd been to the ER I hadn't even put two and two together with the fact that you work IN a hospital, so it WAS just down the hall[/u]. That doesn't make it much less obnoxious (though it could have been worse if you'd had to leave work and drive across town or something- or worse, if you'd lived in a small enough town possibly waaayy over to a whole different town, possibly even with an ambulence if they'd freaked out enough), but that does make it pretty fricking lulzy from that specific outside perspective. X'3; .... XD; Also I definitely also lol'd at this being the longest thing you've written, because barring maybe some of your bios (I'm not even sure if all or even most), I'm almost positive it IS. X'3

Anyway.. 8'D DON'T WORRY FISH THE PERSONAL DRAMA WILL TURN OUT AWESOME I SUPPORT YOU<3 Just keep counting down the days and remember that some silver lining is only getting closer. 83


8'333 BUT YEAH WE LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU AND THINGS WILL GET BETTER SOON AND IT'S OKAY NO ONE IS UPSET WITH YOU FOR NEEDING A BREAK also a lot of us have been on our own breaks or close to it but SSSHHHH IT'S GREAT TAKE YOUR TIME DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO WE LOVE YOU<3 X"3

[Jay]

:/ *pets Fish* It'll all be ok! .x. somehow.