The Next Few Days....

[Maid Melody]

All right so Elayne just found out that her grandpa isn't doing so well and actually had to go back to the hospital. He's fine for the time being but he's not breathing well and his oxygen level isn't where it should be. The doctor gave him some medicine that's supposed to help but I don't know how long that will last. Needless to say I'm not myself lately and other than a few select threads my muse has left the building. I promise I'll try my best to respond to threads so peoples aren't left hanging because that's not fair to you guys.

Thankfully I was able to get a few days off of work so I can go and see him because frankly I'm not sure how long he has left. It just scares me because my grandpa's always been there and has always seemed so strong...to realize he may not live much longer.... well... to say I'm shaken is kind of putting it mildly. I'm going to be leaving Sunday morning and won't get back until Tuesday sometime and then after that I go back to work and hopefully things will be back to at least some resemblance of normal. Though right now I sincerely doubt that...

It's not often I get into this slump of sorts but with this and pile-up at work I just feel....drained and honestly don't know how much longer I can keep up pretending to be happy when I feel like my world is falling apart. And of course my job requires me to be 'happy' and 'energetic' .... which the way I feel right now sounds impossible to me. Heh, even just asking my boss for the days off was hard because it was just another reminder of how scared and helpless I was/felt like at the time. Even just writing this is hard right now actually but I love you guys and thought that you should know so you wouldn't worry if I suddenly disappear.

Don't worry, I love you guys too much to just up and leave VC (especially with Jacktoria hurrr <3) but I may not be on as much anymore. Of course this depends on my work schedule as much as it does my mood but even with working I've managed to be on quite a lot so meh. Yeah...that's about it though, I'll try and keep yous guys updated on what's going on and since my phone can connect to the internet (one of the things I love about my phone) I may be able to talk to yous guys some when I'm in Montana. That all depends on what we end up doing when we get there though so we'll see what happens.

[VEGETA]

Good luck Elayne! VC wont be the same without you're cheery attitude and bubbly personality in the chat..I think I can speak for all of us when I say we'll miss you! (Even if you're not gone permanently) :/

[Jay]

*pets*

It's good that you're going to see him. I know when I lost my grandpa, it was a surprise on the entire family, and I didn't get to go up and see him one last time before he passed. I'll admit that actually makes me a little jealous that you get to go, but feelings of sympathy outweigh that. It's never easy to lose a family member, especially when they're close to you, but since you do have time it will be good to spend it with him.

That being said, just try and be optimistic ok? If he's a strong man, he should pull through, and everything should be fine. Don't give up hope that he'll pull through this and be fine. I know that's easier said than done, but I have faith in you. You're a lot stronger than you think you are, Elayne.

On the subject of muse, yeah I think everyone's muse is sporadic recently except for me and you, so no worries xP. Focus on family first and then writing. As for Jacktoria, I dunno if you saw but I Made Vicki A New Table. I know it has no comparison for emotion with that of your grandpa but I hope it makes you smile for a moment at least (especially if you read the story inside ;3