Lessons Learned (SG)

[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Sen grinned when she offered to take him with her. That pit of fear was swelling in his stomach again but he was doing a very good job at ignoring it. Nothing bad had happened during this second reunion and thus he didn’t think anything bad would happen the third or forth or any others. He didn’t even know why he was scared which was just silly. “Ah so you’ll celebrate your birthday and then go on nice vacation for your reunions. Sounds like a pretty sweet set up” He laughed a little before she finally told him she would let him know when the date was picked and where. He had never imagined attending a wedding before. It would be… well it would probably be fun. Though he kind of hoped it would be small. For some reason he didn’t much care for large groups, even in a bar. Probably why he never really went to any big bars. “Hummm, a year… Well if the bounty hunters have caught me… Nah, I’ll be there.” He laughed again. No bounty hunter, not even that crazy one who had seduced him first (Jade) could catch him. Blush? Damn, she had noticed that? “I ahhh… did I?” He asked, playing dumb and laughing a little. “So… did you kiss him? Like a real kiss. Not the kind you fight over for weeks.” Yes, he did remember her story from the last time they had met. Plus, he figured it was a really good way to change the subject. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Kali just laughed at his comment on his bounty. In the back of her mind, some little thoughts sprang up saying she should try to do something about that eventually, but this remained all but subconscious and any bit she'd noticed was quickly forgotten for now. Unfortunately for Sen, Kali was very good at noticing when people were dodging. If she wasn't, she probably wouldn't be where she was today; hell, she'd probably still be wandering around the Orre if she hadn't crawled home by now. She wasn't too rude to answer first, though. Besides, she did love when people proved they paid attention to her. "Nah, he just wants to marry me, but kisses are icky!" she teased in a silly tone before laughing a bit. "No, I guess I was a little misleading before. Once he finally calmed down from that and managed to stop fighting his feelings, things actually went pretty well~" She leaned back on her hands, looking up at the sky, pleased to realize the storm had died down to nothing more than a little blowing dust now. "Back when you and I met we'd been 'together', more or less, for a pretty good while." She shrugged. "I was just frustrated because he never actually said just what we were, and he wasn't interested in anything more than kissing, and he gets so caught up in his work sometimes. We hadn't actually been out together since becoming a 'couple' until that day in Lexicon and.. Heh. Well you saw him." She sighed lightly, but her demeanor brightened again as she looked back to him. "He's been getting better, though~" She grinned now. "And hey. If you and I keep hanging out, I just might need a slightly less ridiculous amount of attention from him~!" Yeah, she was entirely too clingy, but at least she'd admit and could laugh about it. "But I think you avoided the question," she reminded him. "Even if you didn't realize you blushed, I'm sure you could guess why." If anything, the fact he didn't seem to want to answer improved the odds this might go the way she hoped.[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Sen laughed at her reply and shook his head. They had to of kissed. But he was happy to hear her news. Not like he couldn’t have been anything but, but that didn’t matter. He listened to the rest of what she had to say about Leon and the day Sen had actually met Leon for a short time. He was about to claim that the hit on the head Leon had given Sen had to defiantly of been because of jealousy, no denying it now! However she hadn’t finished speaking yet. He had thought he had skipped out of having to answer her question from before but… damn she was consistent, wasn’t she? “Well I… guess I was just…” Why was he trying to avoid this question? Was he regretting kissing her? Yes! Maybe that was it! Maybe he was actually feeling re… no wait. That couldn’t be it. He had liked the kiss, even if he knew she wasn’t the one from it. He defiantly wouldn’t take the kiss back. Though he also defiantly wouldn’t tell anyone he had kissed her. Maybe… probably not unless he got drunk with her and blurted it out to show off. Either way, he would be regretting something he didn’t want to take back. But for some reason he didn’t want to admit he had been embarrassed either. Sen’s eyes looked back up to her, realizing he had stopped talking for a good five or ten seconds. He had even managed to lift his hand to his chin as he was thinking. Ok. Well now she would defiantly hammer him down till she got the truth. “Embarrassed I guess.” He let out a small chuckle, “I usually try to keep myself from touching someone already taken.” THere see, now that wasn’t so hard to do. Telling the truth was kind of alright. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]NAILED it~ Kali sang in her mind, resisting the urge to giggle. Rather, she just gave him a wry, questioning half-smirk, raising an eyebrow slightly. "Oh really?" she asked, sounding surprised. "But why would you care? The worse that could happen is being turned down, right? Why should it matter if you broke up a couple?"[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] He nodded happily when she asked, ‘Oh really?’ but then quickly stopped as she continued, a rather confused expression on his face. He hadn’t thought of it breaking up the marriage at all. Or had he? No, he was pretty sure he hadn’t. Wouldn’t that have brought up a bit a fear? He kind of felt fear. Though that was probably because he was pretty sure Leon would give him another good wake on the head if he found out. It seemed to be the one things Sen could remember that man for. But maybe… maybe he had felt worried he could break up their relationship and not have subconsciously known it? Or… no, he was probably thinking way to deep into that now. His mind at the time had defiantly come to the conclusion that kissing someone else’s date was bad because it often lead to getting the shit beaten out of you. That caused fear. But could he really tell her that? It sounded so self centered. She did claim she knew he was self centered and still liked him. Perhaps he could get away with it. “The worst that could happen is Leon beating the shit out of me with that cane of his.” Sen laughed, trying to make it into a joke, “But, I dunno. I think if something had of clicked between us I wouldn’t have cared if you dumped him. But I’ve seen Kel break up couples before and I’ve seen how the other guys react to that and I told myself. Sen, just because you can’t feel the way he does doesn’t mean you should go around acting like a total ass. So I told myself I just wouldn’t do it.” It wasn’t until he had finished explaining this that he realized he had said too much.. Way to much. He had mentioned Kel’s name. And a few things he hadn’t ever planned on telling anyone, ever. He didn’t mind telling people he didn’t have the feelings but to actually explain how he went about dealing with that? [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]... Oh man she wasn't even sure where to start on that. Ah... Mm.. Well maybe just rant back. Yeah why not... "I'm not seeing how fear of injury causes embarrassment?" she questioned rather flatly, clearly analyzing, digging at him. "And why does it matter if you're even more an ass than now?" She shrugged. "I could see not wanting to take Leon from me. Wanting my friendship more than wanting him and just weighing the options to choose. ..But why should you care if you destroy a healthy relationship for a night of personal gain?" He had said several times he never saw normal people again, so the one-night stand thing sort of went with that. "Who cares if they're both miserable afterward thanks to you? It's not like you'd lose anything for it, right?" Keep going? Mmm... Nah that was enough for now. She'd jump to more when she'd followed this up enough.[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] The more Kali spoke the more fidgety Sen started to become. It was causing a bit of that fear to start to rise in him as he became more and more confused. He wasn’t sure how to answer her questions because he honestly didn’t know why. And the more she pushed the more confused he grew and the more fear he gained. “I… but” Yet she continued, confusing him even more. “Because…” He wanted it to stop due the panic growing inside him but he didn’t really know how to make her stop. Getting mad at her just couldn’t happen and crying wasn’t an opinion either. In stead he found his cheeks growing a bit red due to more embarrassment and his hands raised to his head in his confusion and fear. When she finished speaking he let out a small laugh. “I just… it makes me feel normal.” Sen blustered out, honestly shocking himself with the answer. But it was true, wasn’t it? He told himself he didn’t do things he couldn’t regret because he didn’t want to fully admit he couldn’t. It was the sort of the same thing. If he pretended he was better than the jerk and didn’t break up couples then he would be normal. He wouldn’t be upsetting anyone and there for he wouldn’t feel bad for upsetting them. He knew he wouldn’t feel bad for upsetting them even if he did but… it was wrong. It was normal to feel otherwise… wasn’t it? Damn, he hadn’t wanted to admit that to himself. Once again he found himself laughing, this time a bit harder than the last. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)].... Aahhhh shit. Well that hadn't gone as she'd hoped. A rather large part of her was screaming 'poor baby I'm so sorry I didn't mean it!' and similar sentiments, yet she didn't act on them. If she stopped now, it ended here, with him like this. She could cheer him back up, but it would still be there. No, if she wanted to have a chance at making a real impression, she had to see it though. Taking a deep but silent breath for courage, she leaned over to a side, drawing her legs up partially under her, and reached out to place one hand on a shoulder. A little hesitantly, she asked in a rather more serious, perhaps slightly concerned tone, "And why should you care if you're normal...?"[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Sen froze almost instantly when she set a hand on his shoulder and asked that single question. His pupils shrank and his face lost all of its colour at once. Even his mind went blank for a moment before a very small voice, his voice, rang through his head, breaking the silence. ‘Why do you care?’ It asked him as he sat there, still as stone. He didn’t know why. He didn’t even know what normal was he just knew he wasn’t. But, why did care? It… didn’t make sense. Sen finally moved again, not much, but enough that he was able to shake his head slowly and open his mouth. Yet no sound came out so he closed it again. ‘Because we aren’t normal. We are betther then him.’ Another voice claimed, yet it wasn’t his. He didn’t know who’s it was. It almost felt like… a memory but… it was defiantly a woman’s voice. Had he gone crazy? “I… don’t know.” Sen finally answered, the trembling from the built up fear taking over his body again as he looked down at the ground. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Mmm... Well, she wasn't sure what else she had been hoping for or expecting, but it still struck her a little oddly. Perhaps.. just the way he said it. That was probably it. She'd not expected it to reach quite so deep. But then... this actually helped a bit, in a way, didn't it... Heh. She gave him a rather weak smile then. Voice growing rather quiet, she observed, "Embarrassed... Self-conscious... Caring without true reason..." The smile grew to a slight smirk. "Weak isn't non-existent, you know... It sounds like you're a lot closer to normal than you give yourself credit for."[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Wait… what? Was she trying to say that… he did have feelings? But… no… well… ugh. He was so confused and scared and he didn’t know how to deal with it. He kind of wanted to get up and run away but he couldn’t because his legs felt like mush. Instead he gave her a weak smile before letting himself flop sideways to the ground. “I feel sick.” He commented avoiding to make any comments on her conclusion but then… he had to ask, “Why?” [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Kali jumped slightly in shock when he flopped over, unable to resist a small "D8 AW!" She held back the rather unexplained urge to start pouring apologies, however, just taking another deep breath. Slowly laying down a bit up from him, she reached out and pushed away the hair that had fallen in his face at the flop, tucking it behind an ear. She didn't bother with the smile this time, just moving the hand from his hair down to set on his cheek. "Why else?" she almost-chimed, though her general demeanor remained gray. "Because fear alone doesn't cover it. There's just... no reason to care. And.. you wanted to get rid of your fear- become more strange. So it can't be nonconformity alone that you're afraid of." As serious as this was... some little piece of Kali had to admit.... she was having a ball. If she had met Sen before Leon...? Heh. Not that there was any sense in thinking about that now, but she still couldn't deny that, as bad as she did feel for the results, there was a certain thrill about getting so deep to him like this that she couldn't even describe. "The things you say and do... They don't add up." .. All of a sudden, a rather wicked grin broke out as a bit of irony slapped her. "Feeling bad about not feeling bad still is feeling bad, you know~" And she couldn't help but laugh.[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Sen didn’t seem to budge or wince when she brushed his hair out of his face and set her hand on his cheek. Her hand was kind of, warm. He laid there with a rather blank expression on his face as she explained her reasoning with him. It was sort of confusing but not at the same time. At least he believed he kind of understood a bit. He really didn’t know why he feared things. He always got a sense that something was trying to hurt him when he feared. Like fire for example. He was kind of afraid of fire. It wasn’t so bad if it was just a candle or fire place but when it grew bigger, out of control… he always had to leave. He blinked his eyes and finally looked up at her as she gave him her last sentence. Feeling bad… He felt bad right now, right? That was a negative feeling, wasn’t it? At least, he figured this had to be feeling bad. He didn’t like the conversation and his stomach was doing knots inside making him feel sick. Yet right now the only two feelings he could really identify was the fear and the odd urge to laugh though it was being held back. Perhaps the other two feelings were just so obvious that he had never noticed the first. “I don’t like this conversation.” He stated, looking away from her again, “Does… that mean I’m feeling bad?” It was an honest question. He didn’t know for sure. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Kali's heart dropped like a stone when he said he dislike this, certain he was going to make her stop or withdraw away. At his question, however, she went blank for just a second or two before bursting into giggles, all effort to suppress them in complete vain. She... was a horrible, horrible person and some bit of her wanted to go crawl under a rock and die for taking such amusement at his misery, but she couldn't help it. After a few moments to fight this down, she almost-teased, "Yes, I'd say so." Calming further, she thought more on it and continued more seriously, "Probably anyway.. Feeling 'bad' is a pretty broad spectrum," she somewhat shrugged. "But... Confusion and embarrassment- most people consider those negative too. They can certainly make you afraid, but the reverse isn't as easy.. I think.. maybe what you're really afraid of is feeling.." She shifted a little closer, burying her face against his hair and just holding him a bit. "There's nothing wrong with you.." she breathed softly, then smirking. "Or maybe a little.. But being completely normal is boring~" She gave a tiny hint of a laugh. "And... I think things would come back if you learn to let them."[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] He was kind of confused when she began to laugh. At least she was happy about this and well, he couldn’t help but smile as laughed even though he kind of wanted her to stop laughing at him. Though in a sense, there was only three reactions one could take when dealing with his struggle; Cry, get angry or just laugh it off. Since he was pretty sure he couldn’t do the first two and because she was already laughing, smiling seemed like a good enough solution. So then, he had two other negative feelings? Confusion and Embarrassment. Though those two feelings normally happened when something good happened to him. Like when getting kissed by a really sexy man or when trying to decide which he liked better; Honey or Syrup? He had never felt, or realized he had been feeling them for something negative before. As he said, it was making him feel… kind of crappie. Not sad, or angry or anything, just sick. He wanted it to go away. He was going to mention something else. The thing he had felt when had been forced to watch Ty kiss that Bianca girl. He had grown that deep fear in his stomach when it had happened and now… maybe that had been jealousy? Just, a jealous feeling missing the counter of wanting to cry or get angry. It had been enough to cause him to push Ty away. However, Kali mentioned something else that caused that story to fall to the back of his mind and a sudden panic to replace it. “No! No, no, no, no… I can’t. They shouldn’t. I can’t.” Afraid wasn’t the right word to describe his emotion now. He was completely terrified. It had been enough to cause him to sit up rather sharply, not seeming to care that she had been so close to him. He was just about ready to get up and run away even without his pants on or his bag with him. “They can’t.” [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]WAIWHA-- "Shit," she hissed, jumping up after him just a few seconds later and latching around his middle, seeming to recognize that look. "Hey now!" If she'd thought enough, she probably would have noticed a striking similarity to when Yue had seen Nathan in Scorch, just before he bolted. As it was, her mind was more focused on 'what the hell do I say now', but it just seemed liked a good idea to grab on just in case. With just a slight cutting nature creeping back into her tone, slightly from frustration and largely from panic, she loosened her grip after a few moments and noted, "Look, you either want to be normal or you don't. You can't put on some big mask like you wish you were and then have a heart attack at the idea of it actually happening. It doesn't work that way!"[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] He froze for a moment when she wrapped her arms around him tightly. For a few moments he thought about struggling and pulling away but he decided not to. No, the hug of sorts was kind of comforting. That was, until he started speaking again. No hug in the world could keep him struggling at that point. “Why- why can’t I?” He asked speaking quickly due to his panic as she attempted to pull away from her before standing up. “I can’t. I… Id rather fake it.” He quickly made his way over to his bag, scooping it up and struggling with it for a moment in an attempt to zip it up. His hands were shaking much too hard for him to be able to get it closed. “I just…” He continued to struggle with the zipper, “there has to be a reason for not…” He gave up on the zipper, “having them.” [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

[cs=3][atrb=style,height:87px;width:469px;border:0 black none;][atrb=style,border:0 black none,bTable][atrb=background,http://i219.photobucket.com/albums/cc64/Heart-of-Thorns/VC/kalitable2.png,bTable]
[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Kali sighed. Let him try to run... Kjaerlighet could outspeed anything he could try; he wasn't about to get away. This in mind, she just crossed her arms and watched him. "And you're content assuming it's a good one rather than really wanting to know?" Shaking her head, Kali grimaced a bit. How could she even explain... "You know... Jealousy and anger and spite.. I might just not be completely normal myself- I couldn't tell you- but those things can be... oddly satisfying, in a twisted sense. They push me, drive me. And the lower you have to go before rising back up, the higher every high feels. But... I would hate to always be afraid..." Yes, she'd said... and she meant it. But it was just... Bah. "Anxious fear, and fear of loss and sense of preservation.. Those can be wonderful things, but... To truly fear everything, be it the unknown or others or yourself.. That's no life. And.. I assume you understand you most likely feel afraid when you SHOULD feel a lot of lesser negatives, right?"[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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[Lady Leaf]

[scrolly:h(230),w(390),sy,as(padding:4px;margin-top:10px;margin-left:10px;)] Hate to always be afraid? Well… he wasn’t always afraid was he? Normally just, happy. Yes. He liked being happy. It was, a good feeling. Even if he knew there were many things he should have been happy about. Like when getting slapped by someone for hitting on them too much or falling out of a tall tree. He had decided to just hold his bag in his hands as he quickly made his way over the pants he had left on the ground and picked them up. As he bent down to pick them up though, the black shirt in his hair fell out as he picked up the pants causing him to sigh. “I… I have no idea…” Sen replied, still in his panic as he quickly turned to pick up the shirt, a few things falling out of his open bag as he bent down to pick it up. Really, he just didn’t want to think about the things she said. It had nothing to do with not knowing. As he leaned down to pick up the stuff that fell out of his bag even more things fell out and finally he just let out a long sigh and sat back down. It seemed the world was against him running at the moment. “I just…” He began to laugh a little, setting his face into the palm of his hand. After a few moments he stopped laughing and went to finishing his reply, “All of my senses I do have all scream at the idea of… of… It would cause something horrible. I.. know it. I can feel it.” Then again, he had believed something horrible would happen if he made friends with people and… wait… Ty had left him when he close to him and now… now Kali was scaring the shit out of him. Maybe he should listen to his fear. That idea certainly didn’t want him to proceed in getting his other feelings back. [/scrolly] [bg=4f2a66]

[Admiral Striker General]

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[atrb=style,width:215;border:0 black none;]	[atrb=style,height:265;width:221;border:0 black none;color:b7b7b7;][scrolly:h(265),w(221),sy,as(padding:4px;)]Kali sighed, though she was grateful he'd at least sat back down. Moving behind him, she dropped down to stand on her knees, pressing against his back and letting one arm drape down. The other arm held his head on one side while her cheek rested against the other now. She realized her lips were quite close to his ear here, though it had neither been really intentional nor was she exactly 'whispering in' it. Still, she dropped her voice a bit for the sheer sake of not hurting his ears in proximity. "You think. You feel like," she corrected though rather gently. "You can't know for certain unless it happens." Mm... She'd probably dug at him enough though. Time to wrap this up... She sighed softly, then turned to kiss his temple lightly. "But hey.. It's not like I'm expecting you to set out desperate to 'fix' it, mmkay? I just want you to know... that you shouldn't feel like you need to match everyone's expectations. If this is just how you are, you should go with it." She smirked. "It's a lot more fun to be around people who like you instead of just your mask." Compare any of her somewhat-friends in Era to everyone save Ardos she'd known in the Orre. Heh. Growing more sincere again, she went on. "But you shouldn't be afraid to open up, either. Whether you pushed away those parts or they were somehow taken or whatever happened, they're still a part of you. If you don't really want to find out- if you're happy like this- that's fine. But just don't run from any part of that that finds you.. all right? Just like you say it must be gone for a reason, there has to be a reason it'd try to come back, 'ey?" Again she smirked, nudging his head lightly with her own. "After all, weren't you the one that wanted to be brave?"[/scrolly]	[atrb=style,border:0 black none;]
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